About yesterday

I’m still kind of sick, so this might be short. It’s all about wisdom, I think, about knowing yourself well enough to be reasonable in your expectations of yourself.  My friend Peter can train for an Ironman because he knows that it’s reasonable for him to do so. It challenges him, it forms him, as he says, into a better human being. Go for it, Pete, ’cause you can. And you will. For me, such a thing would be ludicrous and I would never commit myself to it. On the other hand, lately I haven’t really challenged myself with more than getting out of bed and getting through each day however I can. Life needs to be about more than that, I think. Trouble is, I don’t know how to do anything else right now, and right now is when I need to do it. I try to walk, and wreck my better knee. I try to write, and can’t put more than two coherent sentences together. When I write here, coherence is less of problem, but it seems to me that I do all right. Housework doesn’t get done, sometimes meals don’t get prepared. I accept that when I feel as sick as I do now, those things can slide a bit more than usual, but not always.

So this is my resolve: when I see me physio on Thursday, I am going to get an exercise program. That day, I also see my doc, so if I still feel crappy, I will get that straightened out. Now that Doug is so much better, he is doing more around the house, sometimes too much, but he’s learning his limits. To me, it means that I can let go of some of the stuff that I had been doing earlier in the summer. So after Thursday, I am going to prepare a “training” schedule for me! What am I training for? A busy 2015, that’s what! I need to be able to walk for at least an hour, to stand in art galleries and museums for an hour, to concentrate when I write, to devote a couple of hours a day to writing, every single day (maybe not Sundays). Thursday is August 28. By September 1, I will have a full plan, and I will share it. The healthy eating plan is already in place, although I must admit that it’s really hard to follow when nothing stays in my stomach and I feel nauseous all the time.

A couple of days ago, Peter and his wife both shared a motto that should guide us through life, especially when decisions are made and then questioned. I couldn’t copy the nice little picture, but here are the words: “YOU ARE EXACTLY WHERE YOU NEED TO BE!” So even if it hurts, or I want to do something else, or be somewhere else, I really am where I need to be. This doesn’t, by the way. mean that you shouldn’t strive for more, do everything you can to be better, but wherever you are at this moment is exactly where you need to be. Don’t be so bummed if you don’t complete things you set out to do; there is usually a good reason. But also, don’t give up trying! By January, I will be as fit as I can possibly be, and will have lost as much weight as I possibly can. So there!!

Thanks Pete and Roo; you are a blessing to me.

Love, gail  

4 thoughts on “About yesterday

  1. Woohoo! I can’t find the words. This post is inspirational Gail! Your determination is palpable! You will do it! I can feel it in my bones! I can’t wait to see the plan.

  2. This is an amazing post, Gail! I am so excited for you, and I can’t wait to hear about your full plan! I will be here to provide as much support as I can through your new exercise journey!


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